Today I had one of those “Aha!” moments. It made me think of the many “Aha” moments I have had since I began my practice….The first time I realized why I wanted to teach. The first time I was able to be still and comfortable in Downward Facing Dog. The first time I felt an OM vibrate through my body. The list goes on and on….
This moment today had to do with my samskaras. Samskara are a mental impression of the past. Something that we do repeatedly based on what has happened to us before. These habits are the reason that many of us constantly ask, “Why is this happening to me again?”. It is because we continue to react in the same way to the situations we are in or to the people we are around. Samskaras do not have to be negative either. Hopefully, with time and patience, we can begin to replace our destructive samskara with ones that serve us.
“Through yoga we attempt to create new and positive samskara rather than reinforcing the old samskara that has been limiting us.” The Heart of Yoga by T.K.V. Desikachar.
My practice, which involves asana, pranayama and meditation, has helped me to realize some of my unhealthy samskaras. I am much more present and aware in my day to day life since I began my practice. Once you are more awake, you begin to identify the common trends that are happening. It can’t be coincidence that different people keep saying the same things to you. I love the quote “The way you do one thing is the way you do everything.” The first time I heard that I thought, No way! Not true! And then you start to pay attention to how you do one thing….and how you do everything. And you realize how true that statement is in your life.
So today, I express the deepest gratitude for the ability to see my habits and start to grow. I take a leap of faith that I can change even the most rooted habits into more positive behaviors.